A Shadow.

Tears fall, heart races, body shakes, mind embraces.
Breakdown, lose myself, take control, fail fall.

no meaning in life, no reason to care,
holding onto hope, when faith isnt there.
Believing in something, taking chances, all for nothing, nothing to me.

Stand my ground, stand tall and proud.
But you pull me down, twist my heart around.
Pull its strings and play its keys, destroy its purpose and all it believed.

Pulling notes from my throat, suffocating words that leave my feelings afloat.
I picture perfect figures, all dressed up in bones, the one that suffered more than this, suffered all alone.


Ripped the strength from my hands, and stole my voice from inside.
Tought me to hide, and to be left behind.
What was i worth? nothing but a name.
All in shame, scarring deadly words 'you were to blame'.

Ill hide my insides and blame this figure.
Dressed to mask the damage, nothing to say, nothing to complain.

The pieces of my heart have been pulled apart one by one, slowly fading, nowhere left to run.
Sitting silently, my time has come.

Wide Awake.

Your arms wrapped around me for the first time in weeks, and my words come with struggle as my eyes begin to weap.
Can't stand this feeling, so unsure, so frustrated as i put it in words.
Deep inside you know im dying, but youll never see how on the outside im just lying.
I wont forget you, but maybe we both need this time.
Separate me from you, see m strengths are far from true.
Dont hold me close for a while, keep your distance intact.
I swear this wont hurt, dont worry, in the end, ill be the one to lose.
I'll protect you and keep you safe from my mistakes, from my troubles and your worries.
i wont again, keep you wide awake.

You gave me few too many chances to explain the way i feel, all that came out was, none of this feels real.
Everytime our lips touched, my heart fell six feet under.
You were grasping my heart, and my chest was holding on by the last thread.
i pulled myself away, to save you the feeling of regret.
Because baby, id be the first person youd want to see, but the last person keeping you awake in bed.

All this still doesnt express the way my heart screams out, maybe my minds holding me back this time. Thinking logically, this was all just a mistake, all mine.

With this last goodbye, i'll leave you with those few words i always failed to hold back.
i love you, i do and i promised you wouldnt lose.

Unselfish

As her eyes roll back and look into the mind she once controlled,
Thoughts of regret and stories untold.
Every unsatisfying moment, turned her heart to steel.
Every lie she was told, made her world feel so un real.
Suffering others consequences, her thoughts black and blue.
A rescuer her whole life, yet that meant nothing to you.
Hiding her insides, never asking for help.
Fake smiles and covering up everyday frowns.
Only by showing weakness will she ever drown.

Leaving personal problems on the front step.
Taking chances, risks and bets.
No-one can save her now,
No-one will ever know how.
Yeah, she’s so ordinary.
Not one to stand out from the crowd.
Keeps her voice quiet, yet her heart is screaming out loud.

Watching the days roll on by,
Keeping a strong posture, but still longing to hide.
A black hole in her heart, that needed to be filled with light.
Hoping she’d find the answer, as if tonight’s her last night.