now that im losing hope and theres nothing else to show.

and i don't want to feel this way anymore. im tired of being pulled through your story and being ignored through mine. i want this to be more than the satisfaction of having someone to hold, but the every word you speak of. your gestures make my stomach wonder into a place its been so long ago. where everyone hopes to be someday. i got this chance a few too many times, but was let down by lies and unfortunate events. you make my head spin and take different directions in life, i hide the way i feel, hoping you'll want to discover it and take a chance too. ill put my heart at risk one last time, pushing it further than ive ever had to before. being torn and teared apart, i never believed it'd actually be worth it. always having some sort of doubt and insecurity held me back from jumping to conclusions. maybe this time will be third time lucky, im crazy for going after you, but you stand out, and i mean REALLY stand out. im a mess, pick up my pieces and show me you aren't like all the rest.

incomplete.

Lets reminisce on the past, put it behind us and start something new.
hold onto fairytales and everything between me and you.

Im trying to hold this in, this feeling we call love.
The tears running from my eyes, i called to stop from above.
Im feeling so lost in this place, running from my mistakes.
Taking each day as my last, im keeping you by my side to make sure these feelings dont disappear too fast.

We both know what this will come to.
Ive become something a little less than number one.
In this cruel world of love and trust, comes the worst, hate and lust.

I cant tell a story, without being broken in two.
The parts i saved, will be the memories which i made.
Hold me close, dont let me go.
I need your strength to pull me through, i need your body to stay.
Oh, i hope this lasts, youll be the one i wont push away.

My past struggles have held me back, from telling you what i most regret.
Both our hearts stay closed to avoid the risk of death.

Candles

Ever been in a situation where it just feels way too good to be true, where the whole world seems to be going through so much shit and only you and your close surroundings get the chance to be happy.

Its like karma is taking its turn inside you, like you were put through so much crap in the past year or so, and youre so used to expecting something worse to happen, but this one little thing just comes out of nowhere and lights up your whole life like its never been lit up before. When you thought your life couldnt get any worse, when everything was crashing and burning inside and all around you, when the people you loved could do a thing to cheer you up. But then these few people walk straight into your life and everything just changes. Everyone you love becomes someone you never want to lose and every tiny moment becomes a moment you never want to forget. The things from the past seem to fade away more and more each day, and the mistakes you made before now just seem to be forgotten memories, no more regrets, no more wishing you could turn back time. Just the present and the future are all that matters, and the few people that brought you to feel this way, to be so happy that you cant believe it, to be so over the moon that you are just hanging to see something fall all over again. But hey, in the end itll have all been worth it. and those few people that brought these feelings into your life, will always be the greatest most fabulous memory and thought you keep with you every single second of every minute of everyday of the week forever.