Life's corridors.

She'll fly on by, with her wings raised high.
She'll call on the night, as the weak ones lose the fight.
And when you broke her chains, the weaknesses were still attached.
Dragging behind each footstep, they always seemed to hold her back.

You were always so near, but the world deafened her ears.
From hearing your voice, this satisfaction was far from near.
We'd smile and laugh, the world couldn't tear us apart.
Chasing the words we've been looking for.
Gentle taps on disappointments door.

Remind me it wont end in time.
Show me how I can change your mind.

Id give it all, id stumble and fall, into your arms.
And I, hope you wouldn't mind if we tried, just one more time.
You've changed my outlook on life, my insides.
You were my only reason to look past, what life tends to hide.

Remind me it wont end in time.
Show me how I can change your mind.

In this hope to save our souls, we'll dance in silence.
Reminiscing on you and I and taking our time.
Sneaking quietly through life's corridors,
with you by my side, every thing's alright.

Save her breath.

Living like a rainbow.
Many colours make it such a beautiful sight.
Neverending on each side, once so vibrant and so full of life.
But soon fades into nothing.

She was the sunshine of your life,
the moonlight of your night.
She shone brighter then those above,
loved you more then you loved.
Held you so tight,
on those cold winter nights.
Smiled at every word you said,
didnt once stop dreaming about you when asleep in her bed.
Kissed you so softly,
with caution upon your lips.
Only to be left without that last kiss.

She was never enough,
always missing something extra.
Even though she loved you to death,
put you first before every breath.
Nothing will ever satisfy you.

I hate to exaggerate.

you're like the first time i saw the sun.
you blind my path and stop from me seeing ahead.
but you're everything to me baby, you're my number one.
its about time to write you my first line.
and ill take the time to say it, ill put my whole heart into it.

just bare with me, ive never felt this way before,
you're something so hard to ignore.

with every word i say, to try and take your breath away,
comes a sentence hard to swallow.
as your heart beats fast, my heart tends to follow.

you make my mind race, you make my world spin round.
this is my crazy love story, that im never letting go.
i love you more then anything, more then you'll ever know.

7 years on.

you're one in a million faces that stand out in my crowd.
you're my light that allows me to see in the dark.
you're everything makes me want to scream aloud.
the more we spend away from each other, couldn't take my love away, because tiffany, i love you more and more each and every day.
you give me hope, and you're hope gives me life.
when you touch my heavy heart, you make it light.
no word is ever enough, to describe the love i hold for you, right now i cant express it, right now tonight.
don't doubt every word i say to you, i swear if i could, id show you its truth.
you're everything to me, someone i could never bare to lose.

Written for a very special boy, the boy who never cried help.

The boy who never cried help.
His cries painting a picture in my mind,
trembling at his facial expressions, hoping he has learnt his lesson.
His face so blank, but masked behind was emotions he could not hide.
I was so blind to find, a boy who never cried.
A role model to us all, who stood tall and proud.
My hero, my saviour, he was my voice in this hurt crowd.
A master of disguise, never could find emotion in those eyes.
Fighting off the tears, keeping that smile from ear to ear.
Looking up, never looking back.
He held my heart, love he did not lack.
He's my one in a million, my brother, my bestfriend.
He'll be in my heart, forever, until the end.

destruction of a heartless body.

you dont need to ask, if you can tear my heart in two.
'coz im living in the light, with or without you.
finally worked up the strength to get back on my feet.
after pulling me down because of the conditions i didnt meet.
i held on for so long, wishing i had been so wrong.
about the lies you told and your paranoid soul.
you had me wrapped around your finger, wasnt that the way it was supposed to be?
living in your world full of control, but oh no, now you cant control me.

tall and proud i wont back down, no turning back, ill move on without a sound.
listen to those voices, in my head.
right from wrong, i knew the answers all along.

in a world made with love, theres too much hate.
deception and regrets, we burden our hearts with so much weight.
so save your breath, go run and hide.
no-more chances or risks, im never again standing by your side.

A Shadow.

Tears fall, heart races, body shakes, mind embraces.
Breakdown, lose myself, take control, fail fall.

no meaning in life, no reason to care,
holding onto hope, when faith isnt there.
Believing in something, taking chances, all for nothing, nothing to me.

Stand my ground, stand tall and proud.
But you pull me down, twist my heart around.
Pull its strings and play its keys, destroy its purpose and all it believed.

Pulling notes from my throat, suffocating words that leave my feelings afloat.
I picture perfect figures, all dressed up in bones, the one that suffered more than this, suffered all alone.


Ripped the strength from my hands, and stole my voice from inside.
Tought me to hide, and to be left behind.
What was i worth? nothing but a name.
All in shame, scarring deadly words 'you were to blame'.

Ill hide my insides and blame this figure.
Dressed to mask the damage, nothing to say, nothing to complain.

The pieces of my heart have been pulled apart one by one, slowly fading, nowhere left to run.
Sitting silently, my time has come.

Wide Awake.

Your arms wrapped around me for the first time in weeks, and my words come with struggle as my eyes begin to weap.
Can't stand this feeling, so unsure, so frustrated as i put it in words.
Deep inside you know im dying, but youll never see how on the outside im just lying.
I wont forget you, but maybe we both need this time.
Separate me from you, see m strengths are far from true.
Dont hold me close for a while, keep your distance intact.
I swear this wont hurt, dont worry, in the end, ill be the one to lose.
I'll protect you and keep you safe from my mistakes, from my troubles and your worries.
i wont again, keep you wide awake.

You gave me few too many chances to explain the way i feel, all that came out was, none of this feels real.
Everytime our lips touched, my heart fell six feet under.
You were grasping my heart, and my chest was holding on by the last thread.
i pulled myself away, to save you the feeling of regret.
Because baby, id be the first person youd want to see, but the last person keeping you awake in bed.

All this still doesnt express the way my heart screams out, maybe my minds holding me back this time. Thinking logically, this was all just a mistake, all mine.

With this last goodbye, i'll leave you with those few words i always failed to hold back.
i love you, i do and i promised you wouldnt lose.

Unselfish

As her eyes roll back and look into the mind she once controlled,
Thoughts of regret and stories untold.
Every unsatisfying moment, turned her heart to steel.
Every lie she was told, made her world feel so un real.
Suffering others consequences, her thoughts black and blue.
A rescuer her whole life, yet that meant nothing to you.
Hiding her insides, never asking for help.
Fake smiles and covering up everyday frowns.
Only by showing weakness will she ever drown.

Leaving personal problems on the front step.
Taking chances, risks and bets.
No-one can save her now,
No-one will ever know how.
Yeah, she’s so ordinary.
Not one to stand out from the crowd.
Keeps her voice quiet, yet her heart is screaming out loud.

Watching the days roll on by,
Keeping a strong posture, but still longing to hide.
A black hole in her heart, that needed to be filled with light.
Hoping she’d find the answer, as if tonight’s her last night.

Temptation becomes regret.

You can linger at the corner shop, telling stories about what you got.
Taking hands walking across the street, watching traffic at the lights they meet.
Getting home you walk through the front door, straight to your room where she lay on the floor.
Tears flooding from her eyes, this is no surprise.
Blood shed everywhere and all you do is stare
You push and pull her
Being her further down
Hoping soon you'll hold her under and she'll drown.
Throwing words that tear her heart in two, shes now wishing there was nothing left of you.
Blades moving deeper into her skin, knowing nothing can help her win.
This battle has only just begun, shes running from problems that she should've overcome.
Downing the last bottle, shes ready to fall.
Ready to fail, ready to lose it all.
Taking chances never felt so right, all these scars making tonight her last night.
As she fights her heartbeat
She knows this is the end
No turning back, blades and bottles are her new bestfriends.
Gasping as her heart beats once more, falling faster, faster towards the floor.
This lifeless body, laying in a pool of blood
Fought all her battles, but without the man from up above.

repetition

having another one of those days.
where the tears keep rolling
and the days stand still
nights seem neverending
and my hearts forever breaking.
my words dont make sense,
oh sweetheart we're stuck in the past tense.
reminiscing on unforgiven mistakes.
and taking risks we shouldnt make.

all mine, we'll be one in time.

take your time, you know ill always be here through it all.
dont waste your life, its worth more than you know.
and this'll be all about you and me, ill never let you fall.

the tears we both cried, because you were waiting.
held back, i wish i could rewind time.
all i ever wanted, was you to be mine.
but i pushed and i pulled, made things harder for you.
made a mistake, i admit.
now ive lost my chance, oh the things i would do get it back.

i dont want to see you cry, not even see a single tear fall from those eyes.
i want to live inside, this heart of yours, and you to live in mine.
be hand in hand, no-one else around.
just you and me, eternally we'll be.
come back to me, back to me, to me.

One Way Street.

Tell me, do you get the goosebumps everytime our cheeks brush.
Red rosey cheeks everytime our lips touch.
Tingles down your spine when those words sound perfect everytime.
a sigh of relief when i say you're all mine?


Does the fact that your stuck with two paths to chose,
leave you feeling like youve got something to lose?


I'll hold you close, never give you a chance to let go.
I'd give you it all, never let you fall.
Whisper in your ear, how much i love you so.


Im a one way street baby, once you have me theres no turning back.
Lets just drive straight forward on this journey together.
I'll forget about the world, and just focus on my perfect girl.

rollercoasters.

ups and downs, the world spins round and round.
lifes an effort, but in the end its worth it.
take your risks and watch your chances.
believe in the unbelievable and chase the unchasable.
keep your loved ones close, but keep your enemies closer.
told to leave the past behind, but told not to run away.
each and everyday, is a different pill we choose to take.
all the risks involved, we all feel like a mistake.

unforgotten, unforgiven.

tears roll down my cheek, memories flash like a movie through my head. the thoughts i think are ripping apart my mind, sending me on roller coaster rides. this is why youre not as close as you'd like to be. you back off the second i try and tell you my life story. no comfort, no words. just shocked eyes and hearts that hurt.

uninspired

tell me something nobody knows, a secret untold, and both your hands to hold. im feeling uninspired, with no story to tell. so we'll sit in silence listening to each heartbeat and ill sit here and stare at the watch on my wrist. waiting for that day, to have my last dying wish.

underappreciated

So we say our goodbyes, a few less feelings to feel and hands to hold. you let me down another time, disapointed me and became just another memory. how could you play me like a game, use me and abuse me and break through my hearts walls. but this time my piece has been removed, cant play a game with missing pieces, cant pull my hearts strings no more.

years.

I've had these last few days to really be thankful for what i have. as little as i might think it is at times, what i have is something i never had so many years ago. the friends i share my heart with, the family i share my space with. i must admit, at times i wish my life would just end, as it just crumbles down wall by wall. the people that have stood by my side and kept me from falling, ill never be able to thank them enough. sarah my bestfriend, my sister, my second mum, my heart & my soul, the jelly to my peanut butter, my life support and my saviour, i owe her my entire life after what shes helped me through. she literally kept me alive and kept me fighting this on going war between myself and everything pulling me down, the times where i tried telling myself i could get through the struggles on my own, because i didnt want to drag anyone else down with me, sarah was the only one being persistant with her having both hands and her heart held open towards me. and ill do exactly the same back, ill be a shoulder to cry on for her, a diary to be spoken into, and bestfriend and a carer. anything for this girl, id take a bullet in a heartbeat. ive seen how much i took forgranted, how much good memories i let slip away. now wishing i had spent more time being thankful rather than wishing i had more. but at the end of each day, i truely do thank god for blessing me with such amazing friends. without going through these situations, i never would have found the people i have now, and thats something i am truely greatful for and always will be. and also to the friends that showed me a good time, that showed me getting drunk and forgetting about your worries, is a good thing to do every once in a while. that taking risks and chances and waking up the next morning not having a clue what you did the night before, is all about being young and loving what youve been given. yea its a lifestyle i probably shouldnt live with forever, but those nights have brought me so many amazing, fantastic friends that i love so dearly and hope they stay in my heart forever. also, ill ad in, that id do anything for any of my friends, and im pretty sure more than half of them dont realise it. ive learnt to love what i have and care about so many people, more than theyll ever realise.

real life.

ill look at this situation and treat it like a life changing choice. separating the pros from cons, ill analyse it so thoroughly, there wont be anything left to question. and ill hope this'll be the last night i have to make my choice, taking chances and breaking promises, doing what i do best.

she fell in love.

she opens her eyes, as she wakes up to a brand new day.
smiles looking out the window, at the sunshine she adores.
taking the time to see the world for what it really is.
she frowns at the sight of raindrops and people taking walks alone.
turning on the music that puts her mind at ease, taking a deep breath, knowing today is another day contained by frowns falling like the autumn leaves.
she takes the time to pick out an outfit, that shows who she is.
filled with disgust as she faces her figure in the mirror, as shapely as can be, picking out her flaws and she falls to her knees.
cries out to the man above, the only man that ever loved, a girl so broken who shows failure in all directions.
yet he still holds her heart close, not for a second will he let it go.
just constantly reasurring her he will always love her so.