destruction of a heartless body.

you dont need to ask, if you can tear my heart in two.
'coz im living in the light, with or without you.
finally worked up the strength to get back on my feet.
after pulling me down because of the conditions i didnt meet.
i held on for so long, wishing i had been so wrong.
about the lies you told and your paranoid soul.
you had me wrapped around your finger, wasnt that the way it was supposed to be?
living in your world full of control, but oh no, now you cant control me.

tall and proud i wont back down, no turning back, ill move on without a sound.
listen to those voices, in my head.
right from wrong, i knew the answers all along.

in a world made with love, theres too much hate.
deception and regrets, we burden our hearts with so much weight.
so save your breath, go run and hide.
no-more chances or risks, im never again standing by your side.

A Shadow.

Tears fall, heart races, body shakes, mind embraces.
Breakdown, lose myself, take control, fail fall.

no meaning in life, no reason to care,
holding onto hope, when faith isnt there.
Believing in something, taking chances, all for nothing, nothing to me.

Stand my ground, stand tall and proud.
But you pull me down, twist my heart around.
Pull its strings and play its keys, destroy its purpose and all it believed.

Pulling notes from my throat, suffocating words that leave my feelings afloat.
I picture perfect figures, all dressed up in bones, the one that suffered more than this, suffered all alone.


Ripped the strength from my hands, and stole my voice from inside.
Tought me to hide, and to be left behind.
What was i worth? nothing but a name.
All in shame, scarring deadly words 'you were to blame'.

Ill hide my insides and blame this figure.
Dressed to mask the damage, nothing to say, nothing to complain.

The pieces of my heart have been pulled apart one by one, slowly fading, nowhere left to run.
Sitting silently, my time has come.

Wide Awake.

Your arms wrapped around me for the first time in weeks, and my words come with struggle as my eyes begin to weap.
Can't stand this feeling, so unsure, so frustrated as i put it in words.
Deep inside you know im dying, but youll never see how on the outside im just lying.
I wont forget you, but maybe we both need this time.
Separate me from you, see m strengths are far from true.
Dont hold me close for a while, keep your distance intact.
I swear this wont hurt, dont worry, in the end, ill be the one to lose.
I'll protect you and keep you safe from my mistakes, from my troubles and your worries.
i wont again, keep you wide awake.

You gave me few too many chances to explain the way i feel, all that came out was, none of this feels real.
Everytime our lips touched, my heart fell six feet under.
You were grasping my heart, and my chest was holding on by the last thread.
i pulled myself away, to save you the feeling of regret.
Because baby, id be the first person youd want to see, but the last person keeping you awake in bed.

All this still doesnt express the way my heart screams out, maybe my minds holding me back this time. Thinking logically, this was all just a mistake, all mine.

With this last goodbye, i'll leave you with those few words i always failed to hold back.
i love you, i do and i promised you wouldnt lose.